I dont leave people like they leave me but sometimes it seems like they dont so i dont know i wanted this year to be in my side
but when i look back everything is changed and also not all i have from last years is same man as he is changed me and others around us is he cheating or not now its nothing to me if im not jealous because of other woman does that mean im not in love or i am ? because in that question i dont know answer for now
and it doesnt matter anymore when this year started i was forced to go trought umm worse i think i had two operations and everything is okay now to know that you are not ill its something good i feel better as i can hear my heart beating harder i feel like that about legs day by day fight and i will walk again ohh yes i got that money for red dress aso Nina but in the ned i didnt chose to buy her so i bought pink one with blue flowers she was more beautiful and red is not my color anymore maybe of fear thats yy i never loved hospitals but thnx God it ended now everything whats in first place is me healt my father my smile summer beach positive thoughts i think this gonaa be my year ohh i forogot yes i got new notebook for new diary in personal life and yes this summer well going with father aha sea maybee in Croatia maybe idk we didnt decide so i will have new memories as i see as he said just to fight walking more and more ll that easy day by day and it wil be like before den i was thinking maybe i can live with him Germany is not bad place for living.And I wish I could take back the horrible things I've done to people. I wish I could go back in time and make things right but i cant all i can do make future right .