I heard them how they said that one who loves have a lot then he think they lied
why am i begger then ?
Doesnt matter right im right hire and breathing and thats important i think that i also stoped to believe in horoscop or in many things also I've heard that time heals all wounds but that has not been my own experience .I dont think that people cant love you some of us dont see that some of us cant show that but they care but some of us are just lazy im not loved maybe because i did all of that things in wrong way
maybe to be just little easy for others to try something more with everyone to sleep naked cuz only one love killed me summer is there and im still doing things wrong
Or maybe to let it all go nothing goes with force so im leting go to fall down without geting up bot for me not anymore i cant fall for someone i also tired with my best i started to sparkle maybe he was afriad of saprk or waited them to much that he forgot how it looks so he left yes doesnt matter one day someone somewhere
will like sparkles wich i can offer now people love when you are easy and not vir...
i saw that to i i dont have nthing to say or to blame someone so packing is good thing
buyin new number tomorrow planing things coming back decorationg going to Croatia
visting L... in Germany yeah spending christmas there doesnt matter when i come back hire all wil be okay first chanel perfume and bag second time in germany and croatia
just finshed school and there is much things im doing den before well what to do thats life better doing something wit others beter den thinking about someone whom you xxoox
Like my Diary or Blog suddenly became part of everything but once he was part of me part of him no I have to stop this to think about that and enjoy the time I have left she was not the one to blame I know it now she showed and opened eyes she showed that doesnt matter if im hire or not he wont care like I would but that wont mean that I will stop care for him or other people thats me and I cant turn it off like she does .Yes I had special morning N... did come to me so we visted her and that moment I wont forget happiness because in moment I felt all old memories around me them and her house its my second home part of my life and I felt I will say that like old kingdom rise again
and suddenly trinity connected then that feeling that moment you cant describe with words so dont try afther that reality arrived second kingdom will rise maybe but without me to watch that as I told her my story and all my years that I didnt know nothing there wasnt time smile only two things gifts and runing but she smiled said that was okay and that im hire now that she forgived all den she said you will leave alone you will go into an unknown world dont be silent make friends if you fail on that call me and come back doors are opened for you whole life den I said be happy I will see you soon again .What should I do or say I cundt tell that this is last day so yes God we went behind the house we spread out our blankets while N.... was in her own world with stars I pointed to the grass in front of us see how are waves bigger and biggerr she smiled holding my hand sound is better of course it is I will take you there one day I promise