Im okay because i got answers wich i needed i knew them before but i had hope how to tell them that they were right in everything well stupid people they didnt even know him but they knew his move
im not sure do i feel something inside just screms and fire .I guess i wasnt to strong to kill myself so i decide to try with my first choicea small bag and hope that somene would feel pity on road and pick me
maybe something happens like in my books maybe someone somewhere but maybe doesnt matter where i will go just to be far away from hire to dont take much few clothes botle with water id card and sell other things saved money with that choice i need to left more den i can take this makes me feel like that one of days wich i had to give all and he died for her that looks like it was yesterday .hard to know that i have to leave blog and to writte in notebook without phone and net or credit cards if i ever came somewhere i wil trick them and say i was there with him and everyone will believe me .
I got that to but i wasnt brave to respond i mean i would probably write something stupid and i will look like fool so i leaved that how it was even if i had so much to say i cudnt find perfect words for that
he was right why to wait someone who wont care someone who promised to much and someone who wont come .Now i know how can i finish book and only mine will end in this way readers will be shocked or not . It beeter to go for now i dont know where but when i come there i will tell everyone hire that i was there and in road sometimes i can play back memories after that i will be dead for him and others no one cant find you if you dont want to be found right and from now i would love to be dead for others also i guess i cudnt finsih one love with happy end and i would love that if one of Gods is not sleeping right now to make others hate me love hate same things and line is short let it be like that everyone loves dead souls right
and i want to be dead for them also if i died for him as i play back all
he lives inside well i guess that makes him IMMORTAL