I think saddest people in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all.
Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last.Thats how I see it thats how I saw myself But if they lose someone day by day they will try to remember last time they saw that person or what they talked or last words wich they got and most of the time it's a blurry memory because at that time they didnt know they had no idea it would be the last.Then I started to think about it better why would they care if they hurt you leave you if you hurt them but all I got was well wait think about it if you hurt someone more den once year by year and all they have from you is PAIN den they love you. think about it. they're choosing pain over pleasure
That my dear friend I had all and guess what happened well I think i wrote one chapter bad and these days i was strong for them beautiful full of light full of dark but still I end
up alone every night .its not that i cant chose i can but i don want to i dont need to .I fall in love with ideas and fantasies rather than whole beings and then I sit here and wonder why I'm still alone.It's because I don't f*cking pay attention. I'm too busy with one book . I was survivor all the time now i want strength to finally finish book i cant keep writting im tired i want
strength to close eyes and never open them again because i dont want him to be that someone that crosses my mind when im lonely at night... dont want him to be someone I lost and want by my side ,dont want him to be the person that my tears falls for dont want to sleep wit memory in mind i dont wnat to hurt me or him no more .
Dear Lord ,God Whatever take this last from me I beg make him forget me make him forget pain make him forget our laugh make him forget that what we had was Epic.Because i will yo know it who was that person me they leaved me behind i lived in dream i dont know how long people left again there is no one stoping me to end this now no one but HOPE i will wait just to end Chrisrstmas and New Year and ye i will lie soon May will come soon sun and soon people will come back and maybe family to from holidays i wanted to be part of their holiday to but i wasnt invited one day maybe he will come to he said he will everyone will but i wont once you decide to lie like that no turning back sleeping is eternal