The way I'm looking in this December cold and just for one night he stopped to be my all the wholw thing with his birthday turned around to be ash but day before birthday i prepared myself i lost time just learning and searching ways to be better human but in some ways that wasnt enaf not just for him everyone around me i dont know but people want everything and in return you wont get nothing not even word thanks i was always there for everyone of them when everyone needed something i was all and where are they now when i need someone not only to tell me all will be okay that love will pass they wont be hire becuse everyone thinks of himself .Me no one will ick me up from the bottom not now im dirty ,broken ,useless i was cleaned once and i wont forget that day and him but i pushed him away why ? just to fall one more time twice it wasnt enough now it will be i learned my lessons this day or next they wont remember me and after everything they asking why i am what i am selfish and impudent . Dont blame me for that if people could learn to recive and give but everyone wanted to play and when i learned better they didnt want me in game .I was just a girl who suffered for love lets say before yes i was den i become girl who run from love my runing come to the end im on edge so i will became girl who died for love ..
Thats not for me little one for you if i will do this it will be classy so i wrote you what i cudnt tell to him lets say i cudnt answer in question so there it is for you its not like someone will know or you will tell no one is not hire because no one cares
I convinced myself it was okay to give up. But, my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth and truth is that... I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself to be happy for even one moment that... the world's just going to come crashing down, and I... I don't know if I can survive that.
Thats alll i will take good care of well me you saw it saw that i tired but he didnt love me thats the price i dont want to pay anymore im leaving if you are worried dont be i will be all alone take the heart or whatever it even wasnt mine .I'm just sorry for you because yo uwas the one who had to deal with me on my darkest days
One day you and he gona wake up and all wil be fine maybe not today not tomorrow but one day
and thats how that ended i dont know that this happened in normal day or something i probably would forget date about breaking up but in this way i will i will remember him forever