I dont know how to tell you these things it's complicated he was one of those who would go when i needed someone near me and he has not called for days idk sometimes it cud end in months and with him i didnt know what i am what we were he was everything to me and nothing he was mine but i never had him History is hire again Long ago have not seen him but umm of course of course i remember i forgot voice i forgot face i forgot words i forgot love i cudnt admit him nothing of this right now and i never didnt try to do it you know to talk about real feelings to tell him what have he done inside of me that we are in past im sure i would do it i would scream about these things but now that would mean weakness for me and i cant i cant be weak in fron of people like him if someone betrey you once who will guarantee thet they wont try again doesnt mean if you did stand up first time that you will survive second .But yesterday while we did watch movies den in one second she started to talk in one second i died inside 1000 times I smiled and told that doesnt mean nothing to me not anymore yes yes i smiled just that she cudnt see how much i missed him in real i didnt look down i didnt she cud realize i lied i sold her lies in just one minute its better like this and thats how it is they make dreams and alive smile den they take them from you they take all what you did have theirs and yours like you never wasnt owner of your own heart den they leave and all you have from them is hole he could let that girl stay inside me why did he take her i remember her too she listened him admiting how he loved other how he wanted both but she was quiet inside what cud she do she loved naive she snapped, or maybe she needed hero .But everything yesterday ended in him like my n.... with his she said oww beautiful necklace you never showed me what that means i said nothing okay we can sell that too i would never sell that piece of jewerly why not like its worth something of course it worth ..
and that thinking come like i needed it i did know answer in the end why this new one in me became
heartless why did she breaking them to the core i didnt want their pain but inside i did know i have to do this it was me or them breaking someone without looking back. that was fear so yes she was destroying
everything around her wanting only to forget how much she used to love